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الخميس

 

~ I AM ALWAYS HERE!



to be sure...

SO LISTEN TO ME, LISTEN TO ME NOW AND PONDER

I'm going to ramble on for a while, to see whether you understand the mess you're in...


Social stratification in general, and religious stratification in particular, clearly define individuals' position in the system, and shape their lower or higher self-esteem. Religious hierarchy places a more or less personified deity at the top of the scale, followed by one or more ranks of mediators. Then come the believers, further stratified by gender and age. At the bottom of the pecking order are placed non-believers and followers of other faiths. Such a feudalistic structure provides its active participants both with a sense of inferiority, and with someone to tower over, and thus fundamentally negates the principle of equality.

One method of avoiding offense to the gods is to humiliate oneself

    • Frail children of dust, / and feeble as frail... (BBC, 1997).
    • I am weak, but thou art mighty... (BBC, 1997; also Mayhew, 1989).
    • All praise is for Allah almighty, before whose grandeur everything is helpless, ... before whose honour everything is insignificant. (Azam, 1984a. All prayers quoted from this source originate either in the Koran or in one of the traditional hadith collections).
    • I come to Thee this evening, Thy humble bondservant unable to control myself for good or ill or to defend myself from evil. (Padwick, 1961. All prayers quoted from this source originate in prayer-manuals).
    • Nor do I see a generous Lord who would be more patient with a wretched slave than Thou with me. (Padwick, 1961).
    • Thy little slave is at Thy door, Thy poor one is in Thy courtyard. Thy beggar is in Thy courtyard. Thy destitute one is in Thy courtyard. (Padwick, 1961).
    • Lord, pardon! Lord, listen and act! What are we? What is our life?... What is our success? What is our endurance? What is our power? (Assembly, 1977; see also Service, 1967).
    • We who are but dust and ashes, walk among things too wonderful to understand. (Service, 1967).

Families are a micro-image of the larger social system in which they are embedded. Feudal societies gave rise to families in which the father and husband was undisputed lord, served by his wife and children. Contemporary social and political systems are becoming increasingly more democratic and egalitarian, with a style of mutual respect gradually replacing dominance. Practitioners of religion cannot unequivocally benefit from this progress, while daily repeating the blatantly feudalistic norms and attitudes portrayed in the prayer books. This clash between progress and stagnation inevitably causes conflict and tension within family structures.

The firm establishment of enduring patterns for the solution of the nuclear conflict of basic trust versus basic mistrust in mere existence is the first task of the ego...
On the one hand, this trust, developed in the first year and based on a stable and satisfying relationship with a mother figure, is the basis of all future interactions. The development of basic mistrust, on the other hand, is pathological, and leads to inability in later attachment. Only when one is trusted and trusting can one develop self trust, which is a necessary step towards achieving subsequent developmental stages.

DON'T PRAY TO ME, JUST TRUST ME!
I Am Your God
No Matter What

praying is no good
Believing Is Good
and LIVING is even BETTER!
Just Live
OK

In prayers there is a loud call for mistrust, aimed at all believers. This mistrust has two components. First, in order to elevate god, one is called to never trust anyone but god. This command serves to alienate individuals from their fellow human beings and adds to their sense of loneliness. Second, though one is expected to trust god unconditionally, god does not trust man. Untrustworthy humans should always remember that god's distrustful eye is upon them, and behave accordingly in order not to be punished. Untrusted and untrusting individuals are therefore utterly at the mercy of their deity.

    All my hope on God is founded. (Mayhew, 1989).
    • For God in his wisdom / will provide what is best... (Mayhew, 19895; see also "The Lord will provide" in Baptist, 1962).
    • my lord, O apostle of God, O my support, my refuge, my apostle, thou sufficest me. (Padwick, 1961).
    • ...thy heart should be dependent on God, not on men. (Padwick, 1961).
    • Blessed is the man who trusteth in the Lord, and whose trust the Lord is. (From the Grace after Meals, Herz, 1959).
    • ...For in You alone do we trust, O King, high and exalted God. (Service, 1967).

Lack of trust undermines the family as a unit. It is through the parents that children's sense of trust can develop and later be transferred to other relationships; it is through spousal trust that effective team-work of parenting can be established and serve as the nourishing basis for the next generation. The following examples illustrate the tendency of prayers to place god above family. They also constitute a double-bind by contradicting "Honour thy father"-type commandments.

    • He that loveth father or mother more than me is not worthy of me: and he that loveth son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. (Matthew 10:37; see also Mark 10:29-30).
    • No earthly father loves like thee, no mother, e'er so mild... (Mayhew, 1989).
    • Believers! make not friends of your fathers or your brethren if they love unbelief above faith. (Koran 9:23; see also 9:24).
    • Thou art to me as father, as mother, as self, as family, as property, as child. (Padwick, 1961).
    • God the love of Thee and the love of Thine Apostle are dearer to me than myself and my family... (Padwick, 1961).


The autonomy of free choice!

Lacking the gradual development of independence, of being able to stand on their own feet, children will be haunted by a sense of shame and doubt. Being controlled by external forces, they need to repossess the environment and to gain power by stubborn and minute control, thus establishing a future pattern of obsessiveness.

    • Let Thy clear light for ever shine, / To shame and guide this life of mine. (Baptist, 1962).

Autonomy is based on independence, for persons governed by doubt in themselves tend to be dependent on others. This stage is the continuation of the preceding one -- trust vs. mistrust -- for only individuals who trust themselves and look with optimism at their surroundings, can learn to let go of ties and walk by themselves. Independence is a necessary stage in growing up, a proof of healthy development. Without it individuals cannot mature, as anxieties dominate them and make any initiatives and a well defined identity seem dangerous and impossible. Thus, dependent individuals feel helpless, weak, worthless and needy. The nexus between believers and their lord is one of total dependency, analogous to feudal relationships between lords and vassals, and to ties between parents and very young children. It is obvious that large-scale infantilization is not foreign to the practice and the intent of organized religion. In prayer we are all, or ought all to be, children...

    • Hold Thou my hand! So weak I am, and helpless, / I dare not take one step without Thine aid... (Baptist, 1962).
    • Almighty God, you see that we have no power of ourselves to help ourselves. (Alternative, 1980).
    • I have lost my purpose. I am stripped of will, lacking in strength and power... (Padwick, 1961).
    • As a father hath mercy upon his children, so, O Lord, have mercy upon us, and save us for thy Name's sake. (From the Morning Service, Hertz, 1959).
    • We are too weak to walk unaided: hold us, we implore You, by the hand, as a father holds his child... (Service, 1967).


BABISH IDIOCY --- I AM YOUR GOD, AND THAT'S THAT --- NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT
Don't waste your time praying, don't cry to Me
Just live
and live well
in the
NOW
HERE
YOU

In families, the constant curbing of independence is considered pathological. Enmeshing families' need to be needed turns any attempt at independence into an act of betrayal. On the surface, enmeshing parents act loving and appear to be involved, yet they inhibit their children's need to reach out to the world, to grow and to create some distance between their parents and themselves. The threat of this distance is appalling, for it creates a feeling of redundancy and adds to the enmeshing parents' sense of worthlessness. Their children grow up feeling guilty, fused with their family, with an undifferentiated ego, lacking in self confidence and poorly functioning. The lower down the scale of differentiation one goes, the less value is placed on separateness, individuality, difference and growth, and the more is placed on sameness, conformity, and avoidance of change. In the pathological range, the sense of belonging dominates the experience of being, at the expense of a separate self.

An additional danger inherent in being controlled by authority is the lack of means for developing an internal locus of control. An individual will always be controlled by whoever holds the most power, and prayers make certain that believers see god as the "Almighty". Even the doubtful benefit of having an external locus of control, and thus avoiding responsibility, is taken from believers. The deity appearing in prayers, like every guilt-producing parent, takes credit for all success, and blames his children for each failure.

    • What he says we will do, / where he sends we will go -- / never fear, only trust and obey. (BBC, 1997).
    • God never yet forsook at need / The soul that trusted Him indeed. (Baptist, 1962).
    • But for the offenders we have got ready the fire whose smoke shall enwrap them: and if they implore for help, helped shall they be with water like molten brass which shall scald their faces. (Koran 18: 28).

DON'T RELIQUISH RESPONSIBILITIES IN MY NAME,
DON'T SPEAK ON MY BEHALF,
DON'T OBSESS YOURSELF
WITH COMMANDMENTS AND OBLIGATIONS
--- JUST LIVE WELL, LIVE LIKE GOD! ---


Relinquishing of responsibility takes an extreme form in the following texts: It is one's will that is extinguished, following the tenet that modern man is in danger of forgetting two things: first, that his plans and undertakings should be guided not by his own desires for happiness and security, usefulness and profit, but rather by obedient response to the challenge of goodness, truth and love, by obedience to the commandment of God which man forgets in his selfishness and presumption; and secondly, that it is an illusion to suppose that real security can be gained by men organizing their own personal and community life. Listen to this:

    • Take my will, and make it thine; it shall be no longer mine. (Mayhew, 1989; cf. John 5:30).
    • Come, Lord Jesus, come. Come, take my life, take it for your own. (Mayhew, 1989).
    • All that I have is now no longer mine, / And I am not my own; Lord, I am Thine. (Baptist, 1962).
    • Lord, it belongs not to my care / Whether I die or live... (Baptist, 1962).
    • And it is not for a believer, man or woman, to have any choice in their affairs, when God and His Apostle have decreed a matter... (Koran 33:36).
    • I ask Thee everything O Lord, by Thy power over everything, till Thou dost not hold me responsible for anything. (Padwick, 1961).
    • train our spirits more and more into accord with Your pure will! (Service, 1967).

Where is the importance of personal responsibility gone? My, my, my...

In a severely authoritarian family children are inhibited from developing their full capacities. They are hindered by anxiety and guilt, they are trying to conform to their parents' choices while giving up those of their own. Attempts at exercising their basic freedom are considered a sin, and must be extinguished. As freedom of choice and taking responsibility for one's choices is too threatening to the enmeshing parents, it is important to take away from the child the credit for every possible success and to hand it over to the parent. The harm in prayers which leave praying persons responsible for their failures only, is that immature adults subscribing to this approach will not only suffer guilt and low self esteem, but will also adopt it towards their own children, as the only style of parenting they know. Transgenerational pathology is likely to ensue.

DON'T FAIL, BE YOURSELF, TRUST YOURSELF
--- DON'T TRUST IN ME, YOUR GOD, JUST DON'T ---
YOU ARE FREE, AND I WON'T INTERFERE:
YOU WON'T FIND ME ANYWHERE,
YOU BETTER BELIEVE IT


Initiative and guilt are intimately connected:
It is a sense of guilt over the goals contemplated and the acts initiated that stop one from further initiative. And in a genuinely epigenetic fashion, just as the achievement of purpose and direction at the conclusion of this third stage of socio-sexual development depends on having successfully resolved the two previous major conflicts, so does it pave the way for the subsequent stages, and for the achievement of competence, identity and intimacy, in their turn. It is clear, however, that the very nature and raison d'etre of a large part of liturgy is founded on guilt. Indeed, a vicious circle of sin, guilt, confession, asking for forgiveness, and further sin is a hallmark of monotheistic religions. The painful inevitability of this sequence is well illustrated by the following prayer:

    • Had you not sinned and asked forgiveness, God would have brought another people that sinned and asked forgiveness, so that He might forgive them. (Padwick, 1961).

How can then healthy initiative and a sense of competence develop in an atmosphere saturated with an overwhelming sense of guilt and the accompanying need to beseech forgiveness? In the following example the deity itself reminds believers of their immeasurable debt:

    • I fought for you in battles, / I won you strength and victory, / gave you a royal crown and sceptre: / you have prepared a cross for me. (Smith, 1985).

The only way to try and reduce this debt is by constant engagement in asking forgiveness. The concept remains not only an inherently religious one, but also one whose implications contradict practically everything contemporary family therapy stands for. These implications include the shifting of responsibility to the victim, the encouragement of the repression of anger, as well as the promotion of empty formulas of apologizing. Rather than doing away with these issues, all antithetical to sanitogenic family dynamics, the use of the term "authentic forgiveness" is employed by some to underline them. Forgiving, as opposed to holding a grudge, may well be the end result of a successfully handled interpersonal conflict; as such, it will be totally different from both "divine forgiveness" and the "forget and forgive" myth.

    • In your great tenderness, forgive my sin. / My guilt is known to you, my Lord. / My sin is constantly before my eyes, so wash me whiter than the snow. (Mayhew, 1989).
    • Who was the guilty? Who brought this upon Thee? / Alas, my treason, Jesus, hath undone Thee... (Baptist, 1962).
    • If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, God is faithful and just, and will forgive us our sins, and cleanse us from all unrighteousness. (In both the Morning Prayer, and the Evening Prayer, BCP, 1968; also in Alternative, 1980).
    • No doubt, this servant of yours is a sinner, and down-graded. But you, my lord, are the exalted and the beneficient. Please forgive me. Indeed, you are the forgiving, the beneficient, O' great forgiver, O' great helper! (Azam, 1984a; See also Padwick, 1961).
    • Thou art our guardian, therefore forgive us and have mercy on us, and thou art the best of forgivers. (Azam, 1984a)
    • Forgive us, our father, for we have sinned; pardon us our king, for we have disobeyed. (Daily prayer, Assembly, 1977).
    • We have trespassed, we have dealt treacherously, we have robbed, we have spoken slander, we have committed iniquity, we have done wickedly, we have acted presumptuously... (From the Day of Atonement Service, Gaster, 1959).

YOU WANT FORGIVENESS FROM ME, YOUR GOD?
WHY?
I COULDN'T CARE LESS.
YOU GOT TO FORGIVE YOURSELF
AND LIVE WELL:
THAT'S THE WAY
Don't make the same mistakes,
don't pray to Me,
don't be an ass,
don't create falsities,
don't illude yourself
--- JUST LIVE! ---


Guilt production is characteristic of both enmeshing and pseudo-mutual families. These attitudes are homeostatic; while aimed at restoring an upset interpersonal balance, they result in avoiding "actual contact with the other person as a person." In a guilt-laden family atmosphere independent opinions and appropriate emotions are squashed, autonomous behavior cannot be exercised, leading to arrested individual development and to pathogenic family processes.

Another undesirable corollary of forgiveness is the "turning over a new leaf" concept (underlying the practice of confession). The implication is not only that with a single verbal act one can erase the past, but also that one's social environment is expected to cooperate in this manipulative game.

    • I confess to you, Lord, all my sinning. But ...with your help, I've a new life beginning. (Mayhew, 1989).
    • Forgive us all that is past; And grant that we may ever hereafter Serve and please thee In newness of life, To the honour and glory of thy Name. (BCP, 1968).
    • The myth of "new beginnings" is damaging both to the individual and to the family.

Not only does it implicitly release one from responsibility for any current behavior (as in the promises so common with abusive spouses and parents), but it also discourages insight and learning.

DON'T BE AN ASS: I DON'T WANT TO HEAR YOUR STUPID CONFESSIONS
--- GOD COULDN'T CARE LESS: LEAVE ME ALONE AND ACT CONSCIOUSLY ---


The relationship between god and believers is often portrayed as that of a father to his children. Prayers are made to a father in heaven, a father looking from above at the children's activities. In this role the father holds all the power (lavishing small segments of it on a few favored and obedient children) to control his children and to keep them in a dependent, inferior position.

In such an authoritarian family a weak child, lacking self-acceptance, in contrast with an all knowing and powerful parent, is the tool for maintaining control and never releasing the reins. Children idealize their parents, but in order for them not to grow up and stop this idealization, parents must hold fast to their power and make sure that the children never become self-sufficient. Emotional abuse and the belittling of children keep them in their place, and legitimize their control over the next generation using the same means.

    • Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name... (From The Lord's Prayer, Baptist, 1962).
    • Just as a father cares for his children grant us your peace, Lord, shield us with your love. (Mayhew, 1989).
    • Dear Lord and Father of mankind, / forgive our foolish ways! (Mayhew, 1989; also in Baptist, 1962).
    • Lord, be thou my great Father, and I thy true son. (BBC, 1997).
    • I have but Thee, my Father; let Thy Spirit / Be with me then to comfort and uphold. (Baptist, 1962).
    • ...Forgive us, our father, for we have sinned. (Assembly, 1977; also in Service, 1967).
    • our God, our Father, feed us, nourish us, sustain, support and relieve us... (From the Grace after Meals, Herz, 1959).
    • Our Father, our King! We have sinned before thee!... Our Father, our King! Pardon and forgive us all our sins. (Klein, 1951).

One of the criteria for family health is the ability to adopt to the family life cycle, to move from stage to stage flexibly, and so enable members to develop. At each stage healthy families perform various developmental tasks. Pathogeny is revealed when, because of homeostatic needs and rigidity, roles unsuitable by sex or age are imposed upon family members.

In families, parents who never let go, who cannot adjust to their children's needs to grow up and become fully functioning adults, are regarded as pathogenic. Relating to grown up adults as to never-growing children, has grave implications for their psychological development. The legitimization for such a pathogenic relationship between father and children is likely to have implications for the praying family: Prayers portray a good, benevolent father as one who never lets go, who retains his powerful position at the expense of his children's development and status. In addition to god's being a rigid and stifling parent, his position undermines that of the biological parents. While in olden times the father was head of the household throughout his life time, today there is a growing need for nuclear families to separate from their families of origin.

LET GO OF ME, LET GO OF GOD: BE YOURSELF FIRST --- I'LL COME LATER, MUCH, MUCH LATER... MY "LATER"
So: Let Go!


Self-esteem, or the capacity for self-acceptance is an important aspect of adjustment. The lack of this highly desirable commodity has been linked to various types of maladjustment; those who have low levels of self-reliance, confidence, sense of competency or self-respect tend to exhibit symptoms of neurosis and be generally dissatisfied with their social interactions. Only those who believe in themselves can become self-actualizing individuals. Esteem of self and of others is the stage preceding self actualization. It is closely linked to healthy interpersonal communication. Individuals need to feel good and worthy in order to open themselves to their own experiences and to other people. Prayers, however, focus on a weak, sinful and unlovable individual. How much psychological strength is needed to overcome the destructive message of the following?

    • As bread my Lord comes to me, / though I am unworthy. (Mayhew, 1989).
    • Lord, accept our nothingness. (Mayhew, 1989).
    • I cannot tell how he could love / a child so weak and full of sin... (BBC, 1997).
    • My Saviour's love to me, / love to the loveless shown... (BBC 1997).
    • The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise. (Psalm 51:17, in the Morning Prayer, BCP, 1968; also appears in the Evening Service in Hertz, 1959).
    • I beseech Thee with the beseeching of the abased sinner, the petition of one whose neck is bowed before Thee -- whose face is in the dust before Thee. (Padwick, 1961).
    • We, Thy destitute, weak and poor servants, are standing at the threshold of the courtyards of Thy Majesty. (Padwick, 1961).
    • Thanks are due to "Muhammad who is the shelter of the worthless." (Padwick, 1961).
    • ...and I am just a lump of earth, and a worm; dust from the ground, a cup full of shame, a fleeting shadow, a breeze that goes and does not return. (Said on the Days of Repentance, Assembly, 1977).


In order to gain self-esteem, one needs to have unconditional positive regard. One might think that religion will provide exactly such an acceptance. Yet prayers do contain conditions, often exemplifying the "You can be OK, if" paradigm:

    • Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven. (BCP, 1968; from Matthew 7:21).
    • You are my friends if you obey all I command that you should do. (Mayhew, 1989).
    • On those who believe and work deeds of righteousness will (God) most gracious bestow love. (Azam, 1984a).
    • ...If ye shall hearken diligently unto my commandments... I will give the rain of your land in its season... (Hertz, 1959).

Here, as in other contexts, the pathogenic aspects of prayers appear at two levels. First, individuals receive destructive message about themselves. Second, low self-esteem is depicted as a positive concept, something worth emulating, and even instilling in one's children.

BE YOURSELF, FOR GOD'S SAKE!


An important aspect of psychological development involves the dialectics of change, or the polarities of homeostasis and disturbance. The capacity for later change and development presupposes the solid fulfillment of the infantile need for constancy, the sameness and continuity of the outer providers. Prayers invert the process, decry the changing character of adult life and exalt the immutable (childish) nature of matters divine.

    • thou who changest not, abide with me. (Mayhew, 1989).
    • Thou art God, / to endless years the same. (BBC, 1997)
    • But the Church of Jesus / constant will remain... (Mayhew, 1989. Also in BBC, 1997).
    • Thou changest not, Thy compassions they fail not, / As Thou hast been Thou for ever wilt be. (Baptist, 1962).
    • Aye, but ye love the transitory, / And neglect ye the life to come. (Koran 75:20).
    • Thou art the One, the Permanent, Transcendent of mate or offspring... (Padwick, 1961).
    • Thy kingdom is an everlasting kingdom; and thy dominion endures throughout all generations. (Klein, 1951; also in Service, 1967).
    • God does not change; his teaching will not be supplanted; he will always be the same. (Service, 1967).


CHANGE, YOU FOOL, CHANGE AND GROW!


Both individuals and families are distressed by rigidity and by opposition to change. While prayers demand constancy, therapy, by its very nature, is change oriented: homeostatic tendencies, considerations given to slavish restoration of the status quo, constitute a major threat to the therapeutic process. Defense is the behavioural response of the organism to threat, the goal of which is the maintenance of the current structure of the self. A rejection of change, occasionally serving transgenerational pathogeny, may well constitute the grounds for most pathological family processes.

Here-and-now


Each of the three major religions disparages the here-and-now. Admittedly, there may well be an innate compulsion of man to reflect on last things, yet an absorption with after-life, at the expense of effectively engaging oneself in this one, contradicts the principles of healthy psychological functioning. Prayers instruct believers for exactly such a derision of this world and exaltation of the other; they often reflect a contempt for life itself.

    • This miserable and naughty world... (BCP, 1962; Cf. I John 2:15: "Love not the world...").
    • Be still, my soul: the hour is hastening on / when we shall be forever with the Lord, / when disappointment, grief, and fear are gone, / sorrow forgot, love's purest joys restored. (BBC, 1997; also Mayhew, 1989).
    • The life in this world is but a play and pastime; and better surely for men of godly fear will be the future mansion! (Koran 6:32). Azam (1984b) interpreted this verse: "This world is the fertiliser, and the next world is the crop".
    • This world is like an ante-chamber to the world to come; prepare thyself in the ante-chamber, that thou mayest enter into the hall." (Herz, 1959).

While each of the three sources belittles the present, a depiction of after-life as the hedonistic fulfillment of (supposedly) every male's wildest dream is a strictly Islamic feature. It is paradoxical that, as a reward for their faith, the Paradise of the faithful will be awash with worldly goods: exquisite food, excellent wine, an abundance of precious stones and metals, brocade lined couches, and an endless number of virgins, "whom nor man nor djinn hath touched before them" (Koran 55:56). The message conveyed by the following extracts is that abstract, religious faith is but a means to a concrete, hedonistic end:

    • And theirs shall be the Houris, with large dark eyes.../ Of a rare creation have we created the Houris, /And we have made them ever virgins, / Dear to their spouses, of equal age with them... (Koran 56:22 and 34-36).
    • But, for the God-fearing is a blissful abode, / Enclosed gardens and vineyards; /And damsels with swelling breasts, their peers in age... (Koran 78:31-33; see also 4:60; 37: 47; 44: 54; 52: 20; 55: 56 and 70-74, as well as Padwick, 1961).
    • And in Paradise will be given to him forty domes of silver, in every dome a castle of gold, in every castle a hundred pavilions of light, in every pavilion a bed of silken brocade, on every bed a slave-girl of the hur... (Padwick, 1961).

Total dependence on an intangible future results in a neglect of the present: One is not motivated to cope with current difficulties or to invest energies in ameliorating the quality of life. The tendency to deny the present and to console oneself with unrealistic dreams runs against the developing of adjustment skills; it entails, both for the individual and the family, an avoidance of reality and personal responsibility. When the sought for future is life after death, this process is not only crippling, but also portrays life as insignificant and trivial:

    • ...this present life is but a passing good... (Koran 13:26).

Anxiety and fear must be constantly present in the mind of the believer. Conflicts between religious commandments and the wish to act upon both innate and acquired drives are likely to create anxiety. Fear cannot be far behind either, when one is ceaselessly reminded of the punishments awaiting sinners.

    • ...everlasting death. (BCP, 1968).
    • The wicked shall be turned into hell: and all the people that forget God. (BCP, 1968, from Psalms 9:17).
    • Those who disbelieve our signs we will in the end cast into the fire: so oft as their skins shall be well burnt, we will change them for fresh skins, that they may taste the torment. (Koran 4:59).
    • ...oh! how wretched shall be the people of the left hand! / Amid pestilential winds and in scalding water, / And in the shadow of a black smoke, / Not cool, and horrid to behold. /...And thereupon shall ye drink boiling water, / And ye shall drink as the thirsty camel drinketh. / This shall be their repast in the day of reckoning! (Koran 56:40-56).
    • Lay ye hold on him and chain him, / Then at the Hell-fire burn him, / Then into a chain whose length is seventy cubits thrust him; / For he believed not in God, the Great... (Koran 69:30-33).

But high levels of fear and anxiety cannot be tolerated; to permit day-to-day functioning, the same institution that has unleashed these debilitating forces, must also provide for their temporary reduction. An inspection of sources shows that they persistently teach and encourage the use of defense mechanisms, unconscious arrangements which permit the individual to postpone satisfaction, to find substitutions, and otherwise to arrive at compromises between id impulses and super-ego compulsions.

One type of praying formula asks for deliverance from "desires", condemning sexual needs even before they are acted upon. This demand for the repression, or rather suppression of life instincts is simultaneously a psychological abomination and a sine qua non of the religions under consideration.

    • Dost thou renounce... the carnal desires of the flesh...? (BCP, 1968).
    • Awake, and rise up from the dead, / and Christ his light on you will shed. / Its power will wrong desires destroy, / and your whole nature fill with joy. (Mayhew, 1989).
    • From earthborn passions set me free... (BBC, 1997; also Mayhew, 1989).
    • Make us those in whose hearts the door of selfish desire is locked. (Padwick, 1961; based on Koran 79:40-41).
    • He who is mastered by his lower self becomes a captive in the power of his selfish desires, confined in the prison of his own inclinations. (Padwick, 1961). Based on the Koran 79:40-41: "But as to him who shall have feared the majesty of his Lord, and shall have refrained his soul from lust, / Verily, Paradise -- that shall be his dwelling place."
    • Protect us O God from the evils of our (lower) selves and the illusion of our works... (Padwick, 1961).
    • Deliver me... from this self which urges me to evil / And from rebelliousness, to sin's disaster calling. (Padwick, 1961).
    • Make us those who preoccupy themselves against selfish appetites by the remembrance of Thee... and put out the fire of selfish desire... (Padwick, 1961).
    • What then hinders us? The perversity in our nature. You know that we ourselves have not the strength to overcome it; therefore, O Lord our God and God of our fathers, help us to subdue it... (Service, 1967).
    The above prayers clamor for the suppression of Eros. Other prayers go a step further by attacking Thanatos, as well: They demand an extinction of all "negative" emotions, and their replacement by a mask or facade. Such denial of unwanted emotions is characteristic of an undifferentiated pseudo self, whose task is to please others, at the expense of obliterating one's individuality.
    • Let faith be my shield and let joy be my steed / ?gainst the dragons of anger... (BBC, 1997).
    • When troubles come and things go ill, / Teach us to seek from Thee the grace / That turns to heaven a trustful heart, / And to the world a smiling face. (Baptist, 1962).
    • Let me be silent if people curse me, my soul still humble and at peace with all. (Assembly, 1977, p. 41).
    • Allah! Forgive me my sin and suppress anger from my heart. (Azam, 1984a).
    • Be not ready to quarrel; avoid oaths and passionate adjurations, excess of laughter and outbursts of wrath: they disturb and confound the reason of man. (The ethical will, by a 13th century Jewish sage, in Hertz, 1959).


YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING! I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE HOW FOOLISH YOU CAN BE


Pathological communication is implicated in developing a pathogenic family. There are closed systems which will not enable talk about any anxiety promoting topic. Dysfunctional family rules that establish taboos cause pain and establish pathogenic communication patterns. Repression of emotions, denial of painful topics and dynamics, and rejection of the proclaiming of needs help parents maintain control over their children, and not face any threat to their own homeostatic need. If emotions and desires are negative in the adult believer, they should be extinguished early on among the believer's children.

    • Christian children, all must be / mild, obedient, good as he. (Mayhew, 1989).

Asceticism has a dual nature: It is both driven by guilt over vague deeds and transgressions, and constitutes an attempt to restore faith in the kindness of the powers of the universe. It is not only in primitive religions that one must treat the Supernatural Providers of food and fortune as if they were angry and must be appeased by prayer and self-torture. Each of the three monotheistic faiths looks with special favor upon self-denying individuals, the ones who go beyond just serving their deity by actively depriving themselves of food, sleep, sex or physical comfort. This attitude toward life is a direct outgrowth of several themes encountered above: mistrust, doubt, guilt, rejection of the here-and-now, and a repression of emotions. The encouragement of self denial (the opposite of self-actualizing) is one of the clearest examples of the inevitable clash between psychology and religion.

    • Lord, accept our Lenten fast and forgive our sinful past... (Mayhew, 1989).
    • Gentle Jesus, meek and mild... / Fain I would be as Thou art... / Thou didst live to God alone, Thou didst never seek Thine own, / Thou Thyself didst never please, / God was all Thy happiness. (Baptist, 1962).
    • The month-long Fast of Ramadan is one of the five pillars of Islam. During this month the faithful abstain from food, drink and sexual relations between sunset and sundown. (See Koran 2:179-183).
    • ...and ye shall afflict your souls. (Concerning the fast on the Day of Atonement; Hertz, 1959; from Leviticus 16:31).
    An extreme form of self-denial is self-sacrifice, accompanied by patient suffering. The exaltation of such behavior is unique to Christian liturgy, with its glorification of Jesus' self-sacrifice. No wonder that the modern Roman Catholic theologians wrote with such derision of "psychological egocentrism".
    • ...the cross where my Saviour / For me was slain... (Baptist, 1962).
    • Hopes of joy that never dies / Hang on our Saviour's sacrifice. (Baptist, 1962).
    • A life of self-renouncing love / Is one of liberty. (Baptist, 1962).
    • No greater love a man can have than that he die to save his friends. (Mayhew, 1989).
    • Be still, my soul: the Lord is on thy side; / bear patiently the cross of grief or pain. (Mayhew, 1989; also in BBC, 1997).
    • And there should be no greater comfort to Christian persons, than to be made like unto Christ, by suffering patiently adversities, troubles, and sicknesses. (From The Visitation of the sick, BCP, 1962).
    • Lead us to repent according to his preaching and after his example constantly to speak the truth, boldly rebuke vice, and patiently suffer for the truth's sake... (Alternative, 1980).

Suffering and pain, often unavoidable, are among the major triggers of dysfunctionality and maladjustment, cruelty and violence. Both psychology and medicine are devoted to the alleviation of human suffering. The above religious excerpts' aggrandizement of suffering legitimizes not only the pathological role of the victim, but also the act of victimization.

Compensation
While compensation is the major defense mechanism (or problem solving device) in the some psychological vocabularies, these are not alone in assigning to it an important place among the defenses. Thus many see the related mechanism of substitution as one of the major components of many of the defenses, while it is found that the thwarting of self-esteem needs may lead to "compensatory or neurotic trends". Like other defense mechanisms, compensation and substitution distort reality, preventing the individual from "an openness to experience".

    • ...may we abide in union / With each other and the Lord; / And possess in sweet communion / Joys which earth cannot afford. (Baptist, 1962).
    • Not what I am, O Lord, but what Thou art, -- / That, that alone can be my soul's true rest. (Baptist, 1962).
    • Thou Who art compensation for all else, and for Whom nothing else is a compensation. (Padwick, 1961).

COMPENSATE YOURSELF: LIVE IN THE HERE AND NOW --- DON'T WAIT FOR FUTURE REMUNERATION, AS I WON'T BE THERE TO REMUNERATE YOU


The idea that the deity can serve as compensation for unsatisfied needs, has several undesirable consequences: It legitimizes the use of a defense mechanism instead of directly coping with the problem. As in all other neurotic behaviors it is self-perpetuating. It prevents the individual from seeking help among "lesser beings" such as parents, friends and professionals. It also frees one's close social circle from the responsibility of offering meaningful support, as they can always send the needy to find compensation with their deity.

Control!
Control is antithetical to autonomy. Control techniques, ranging from mild to severe, coerce individuals to act according to the plan of another. Though controlling agents may think that all their efforts are for the controlled's "own good", coercion is by definition detrimental to mental health. Several control mechanisms appearing in prayers will be identified below.

Communication
The main instrument of interpersonal control is pathogenic communication. While blamers exercise control through guilt-producing, placaters achieve their goals by being submissive. Belittling oneself, while inflating the other, may stop the other person's anger and result in some brownie points. The super-rationals' fear of being hurt makes them flee from emotions. They have a strong need for controlling both self and others. As emotions tend to overpower, they are viewed as a threat and are repressed. The super-rational receive power from pretending to know it all, thus making their audience feel ignorant and foolish. The irrelevant disbelieve the possibility of gaining self worth through being heard and evade any confrontation. They control through refusing to become engaged. In their self-belittling prayers, believers exhibit various types of such incongruent communication They constantly placate (prayer as "a verbal sacrifice") attributing to their lord a pattern of blaming them. (Though there is also an incipient reciprocal blaming in the Lord's Prayer: "Lead us not into temptation...", as well as in this Koranic verse: "Portion out for us such fear of Thee as will keep us from disobeying Thee..."). There is more than a touch of super-rationality in the frequent admonition not to try and understand god's ways (see below). In group confessions of unspecified sins, as well as in group absolutions of the same, there is an atmosphere of irrelevance or lack of connection between individual actions and their consequences. Ingratiating is ubiquitous, especially in petitionery prayers:

    • Although we for our iniquities have worthily deserved a plague of rain... BCP, 1968)
    • ...grant that the scarcity and dearth, which we do now most justly suffer for our iniquity... (BCP, 1968).
    • Lo I Thy servant am at Thy door; Thine abject one at Thy door; Thy captive at Thy door; Thy destitute one at Thy door... (Padwick, 1961).
    • Deal not with us according to the evil of our doings; remember, O Lord, thy tender mercies and thy lovingkindness; save us according to thine abundant goodness, and have pity upon us, we beseech thee. (From the Morning Service, Hertz, 1959).


YOU MASOCHISTIC IDIOT! YOU REPRESSIVE FOOL: WILL YOU ULTIMATELY BE YOUR SELF? WILL YOU EVER?


Another type of communication pathology lies behind prayers that discourage the individual from asking questions. In such declarations we witness a practical rejection of free and open communication, a renouncing of the will to understand, a condemnation of curiosity. As such, they have the potential to damage cognitive development.

    • The Lord knows all your needs before you ask. Only trust in him for he will do the task of bringing in your life whatever you must know. (Mayhew, 1989).
    • God moves in a mysterious way / His wonders to perform. (Baptist, 1962).
    • Judge not the Lord by feeble sense, / But trust Him for His grace. (Baptist, 1962).
    • All laud to Him the depth of whose eternal greatness is unthinkable by the minds of men. (Padwick, 1961).
    • I take refuge with Thee O God from unprofitable knowledge... (Padwick, 1961).

The systematic reading of pathological communication patterns in a source which is considered as above all others, can only result in the praying population adopting these same patterns into their lives and their interactions with their families.

Bookkeeping
Bookkeeping is a basic aspect of worship. The above mentioned lack of unconditional acceptance (You're OK, if...) is accompanied by an accounting system; all of the earthly creatures' deeds are noted and classified, in order to be rewarded or punished at a later time. The invidious practice of bookkeeping, one of the most frequently encountered pathological processes in family structuring, well illustrates the anthropomorphic projection performed by humans toward the deity. Bookkeeping in prayers can be blatant or subtle, involving simple tit-for-tat, or the bringing up of mythical promises made to biblical forefathers.

    • Therefore, kind Jesu, since I cannot pay thee, / I do adore thee, and will ever pray thee... (BBC, 1997).
    • In blazing light your cross reveals / the truth we dimly knew, / what trivial debts are owed to us, / how great our debt to you! (BBC, 1997).
    • Charge them who are rich in this world, that they be ready to give... laying up in store for themselves a good foundation against the time to come, that they may attain eternal life. (BCP, 1968; from 1 Timothy 6:17-19 ).
    • He that hath pity upon the poor lendeth unto the Lord: and look, what he layeth out, it shall be paid him again. (BCP, 1968; from Proverbs 19:17).
    • We sent a stone-charged wind against them all, except the family of Lot, who at daybreak we delivered, / By our special grace -- for thus we reward the thankful. (Koran 54:34-35).
    • Ungrateful is man. (Koran 17:69).
    • Reciting 80 times on Friday a short sentence results in Allah forgiving the reciter the sins of 80 years (Azam, 1984a). For reading prayer # 30, 2,000,000 good deeds will be recorded by the Recording Angels, but only 40,000 for # 40. Prayers # 13 and 37 permit one to enter paradise (if said right before one dies), prayers # 15 and 17 result in one's sins being forgiven and prayer # 32 "gets his debts paid by Allah Almighty, even if it is as big as a mountain." For him who says one of the previously quoted prayers "Allah Almighty writes down 1000 good deeds, raises his stage by 1000, and 70,000 angels are appointed to pray for his forgiveness." (# 4).
    • Who is it that will lend to God a goodly loan? He will double it to him again and again. (Koran 2:246; see also 64:17 and elsewhere).
    • When a certain prayer is said "God Most High says, ?Behold my servant to whom I gave an immeasurable gift has given me a priceless return for it.'" (Padwick, 1961).
    • He remembers the good deeds of our fathers... (Assembly, 1977).

As the intimate relationship between god and his believers appears to be based on a not too subtle accounting system which puts the believer in a never repayable debt, it can only teach spouses and siblings, parents and offspring to be similarly mercantile while interacting with each other. It can only lead to a low stage of moral development, as one gives of oneself only in order to gain debtors.

Surveillance
There are three types of attitude change: internalization, identification and compliance, with the last being the most superficial process. When an individual has neither internalized a message, nor has sufficiently identified with its source, constant surveillance is needed for the assurance of continued compliance with the source's demands. In such an atmosphere there is no privacy, one can never relax - Man must live in constant fear and awe of Him, and always be on his guard against Him. This constitutes an attack on the separation (so important for psychological well-being!) between internal and external worlds.

    • Almighty God, unto whom all hearts be open, all desires known, and from whom no secrets are hid... (BCP, 1968).
    • Nothing was ever invisible nor will be invisible to Thee: from Thee no secret is hid. (Padwick, 1961).
    • Oh my Lord, you look at me and know me ev'ry moment of each day. Whether I walk or stand or lie you read my secret thoughts from far away. (Mayhew, 1989).
    • Your Lord well knoweth what is in your souls; he knoweth whether ye be righteous. (Koran 17:26).
    • ...and God knoweth what ye do openly and what ye hide. (Koran 24:29).
    • ...verily, God knoweth the very secrets of the breast. (Koran 5:10).
    • ...and God's eye is on His servants. (Koran 3:19).
    • For the righteous God trieth the hearts and reins. (Psalms 7:9).

The respect of privacy is a difficult task to learn and to practice in families. If god as parent does not allow for any privacy, earthly parents may find it not only permissible but even admirable to emulate him. The idea that "big brother is watching" is always anxiety and guilt provoking. Telling someone that s/he will be constantly watched also shows how negative this person is expected to be, and how only fear can keep him/her in check. If those values are adopted into the family they destroy trust in self and others, and diminish the self into either a criminal who tries to hide, or into one whose "sainthood" is due to constant fear.

Indoctrination
Another inherent feature of monotheistic religions is their total lack, and indeed doctrinal rejection of pluralism. While some denominations have proselytized and/or actively attacked non-believers more than others, all share an abhorrence of competing viewpoints. There is an insistence on one "Truth" to early Christianity, though the Jewish Bible is not devoid of protestations against falsehood, either (as in "lying lips are abomination to the Lord"; Proverbs 12:22; see also 6:17). The proclaimed existence of one truth creates for all dissenters a painful double-avoidance conflict: Erase yourself by conforming, or be erased by your social environment when voicing your deep-seated convictions.

    • This is the Catholic Faith: which except a man believe faithfully, he cannot be saved. (From the Morning Prayer, BCP, 1968).
    • They also are to be had accursed that presume to say, That every man shall be saved by the Law or Sect which he professeth... (Article of Religion #18, BCP, 1968).
    • I am commanded to make war on mankind till they say La ilaha illa 'llah. (I.e. "There is no god but Allah"; Padwick, 1961).
    • The Koran is the perfect truth. (Gibb, 1975).
    • I believe with perfect faith that the prophecy of Moses ... was true, and that he was the chief of the prophets, both of those that preceded and of those that followed. (Principles of faith # 7, Hertz, 1959).

The myth of there being only one truth and one way damages individuals' ability for flexible, divergent thinking and justifies the persecution of dissenters in societies. Within enmeshed families the rejection of dissenting opinions constitutes the basis for practically every pathological process. The nonconforming member is regarded as a threat, with the family's negative emotions channeled towards him/her. This member is rejected, blamed, often labelled sick.

YES, THERE IS IN FACT ONLY ONE TRUTH: MINE --- AND YOU'RE NOT GOING TO FIND IT. SO YOU BETTER FORGET ABOUT IT.
Be flexible,
be understanding,
be divergent,
be dissenting
be non-conformist,
be emotional,
be
YOURSELF


Comparison
In addition to encouraging competition rather than cooperation, the drawing of comparisons between individuals establishes pecking orders. While these may serve well in some social environments, neither competition, nor the existence of hierarchies is conducive to the well-being of primary groups. As the following examples show, the act of comparison may have many different targets (among them, somewhat surprisingly for monotheistic religions, other gods).

    • There is no god as great as you, O Lord, / there is none, there is none. / There is no god who does the mighty wonders / that the Lord our God has done. (Mayhew, 1989).
    • All praise be to Allah who saved me and prevented me from this trouble, which was inflicted by him, and who gave me preference and goodness compared with most of his creatures. (Azam, 1984a).
    • "Allahu akbar" (The Muslim call to prayer, as well as "one of the most terrible of the world's battle-cries") means "God is greater" (Padwick, 1961). It can be exchanged for "God is far greater," or "God is greater than the greatest." (Padwick, 1961, p. 35). In everyday usage the comparison is not only to other gods: "God is mightier than all His created beings. God is mightier than him whom I fear, than him I dread." (Padwick, 1961).
    • And true it is that even the sinners of this community are better than the Jews and the Christians and the Magians. (Padwick, 1961).
    • The insidious practice of comparison extends to the hereafter, as well: "I ask Thee for one of the high places in paradise." (Azam, 1984).
    • Who is like You, Lord, among the gods men worship! / Who is like You. (Assembly, 1977; see also Hertz, 1959 and Service, 1967; based on Exodus 15:11).
    • There is none like thee, O Lord, among them acclaimed as divine; and there are no works like thine. (Klein, 1951).

Each religion regards itself as better, by belittling others. In addition to legitimizing scorn towards others, this practice strengthens a group of myths of the "I'm holier than thou" type. In the family context, families often turn a blind eye to their pain by pronouncing themselves better than others. Such comparison also dominates several family subsystems, it promotes competition between spouses, siblings, gender groups, families of origin. The most pathogenic aspect of these dynamics is consistently forcing a family member (or subsystem) into the loser's position.

NO ONE IS A LOSER: SO DON'T LOSE YOURSELF


Manipulations
Interactions become plainly manipulative, when one side seeks to impose a unilaterally defined outcome on the situation. Of the endless number of techniques a manipulator can use, we shall select one that often appears both in family interactions and in prayers: It is called "For your own good". In all of the following, as in some analogous interpersonal exchanges, the sender of the message tries to overcome the target's reluctance to act in a way that would benefit the sender. The sender achieves this by convincing the target that the one who would really benefit is the target itself.

    • Lord of hosts, fight for us, that we may glorify thee. (From Special Prayers with respect to the Enemy, BCP, 1968).
    • Though sinful, we implore thee to turn and make us live, that so we may adore thee, and our offering give. (Mayhew, 1989).
    • Do it for thy sake, if not for ours. (Hertz, 1959).
    • Hear my prayer, prolong my life, let me complete my years in happiness, that I may be enabled to serve thee and keep thy statutes with a perfect heart. (From a Prayer in Sickness, Hertz, 1959).

Manipulation deprives one of freedom of choice, it is dishonest and opportunistic, belittling and contemptuous of the other's intelligence ("I know what's good for you better than you do"). It portrays the manipulator as good and considerate of the other --- a misrepresentation --- and the victim as stupid and helpless. In the family it undermines egalitarian relationships and congruent communication, rewarding craftiness, rather than authenticity. It also teaches children to employ the same arrogant tactics in their dealings with the world.

DON'T BE STUPID AND HELPLESS


Obedience
Unquestioning obedience to god and to parents is a basic tenet of all three religions. The very meaning of Islam is "submitting", so that a Muslim literally means one who has surrendered, is resigned to another's will (see Koran 46:14 and elsewhere). Disobedience to parents is one of the most dreadful sins in Islam (e.g., Koran 17:24-25). Obedience is also a cornerstone of Christianity (see, for example the theme of "perfect submission" and the expression "Freedom in obedience").

    • Prayer that the full surrender/ Of self may perfect be... (About marriage; Baptist, 1962).
    • And who hath a better religion than he who resigneth himself to God...? (Koran 4:124; see also 3:18; 31:21).
    • Honour thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be long upon the land which the Lord thy God giveth thee. (The 5th of The Ten Commandments, part of the Morning Service in Hertz, 1959).

The demand for blind obedience towards heavenly or earthly fathers establishes a norm of enforced respect. In addition to all the ills associated with stratification and belittling, it also sanctions irrelevance: Does a healthy social system want children to obey and honour their parents, regardless of these parents' behaviour? And should children who have no reason to do so, lie and pretend? Why is the 5th Commandment needed? Parents who deserve to be honoured are certainly in no need of it, for their children are likely to grow up in a healthy atmosphere, and will honour them. The ones who need institutionalized honouring (in the family or in the larger social system) are those who fail in honouring themselves, their parental role, their children, and are in danger of being evaluated according to their true merits. A mistrust of family health and a fear of losing control, as portrayed in many prayers, may result in generation after generation being brought up according to a distortion.

Coercion is in itself anti-democratic, rigid, lacking in respect for the other person. Apart from the danger residing in the coercive nature of all the above mechanisms, they also specifically legitimize and promote the use of several pathogenic practices. It is easy to see how incongruent communication can both bring about and deepen interpersonal conflict, how the custom of bookkeeping vis-a-vis the deity is analogous to an accounting system between spouses or between children and parents within the family, how the idea of "my religion is the best" can be translated to "I and mine are the best". Whether it is the idea of surveillance, intra-familial comparison, or manipulation that believers derive and adopt from their prayers, they are likely to act in a manner directly opposed to commonly accepted criteria of healthy family dynamics.

All social sciences - indeed all human sciences - are a threat to religion...
Psychology as the discipline that deals directly with the nature of human beliefs presents a most direct threat. Indeed, psychology in general, and its various humanistically oriented approaches in particular, stand in direct opposition to the long list of messages inherent in these prayers: feudal hierarchy, rejection of autonomy and self-actualization, repression of emotions and needs, and the exercise of interpersonal control. In addition to highlighting this basic contradiction, I have also shown you how these messages may be used to legitimize and encourage pathogenic family processes.

IS GOD A PSYCHOLOGIST? AM I REALLY?
I Am The Universal Mind, My Psyche Is the Mover Of The Universe
I Am The Prime Mover
I Push
You Move


One could minimize the gravity of the contradictions between psychology and religion by suggesting that prayers here were taken too literally and therefore too seriously. But such an approach would in itself reveal a rejection of a basic rule of healthy communication, namely "Say what you mean, and mean what you say." In this spirit, though reluctantly, owing to its frightening message, I give you this last quotation for your consideration:

    If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple. (Luke 14:26).


How bad can you get???

Do it for thy sake

WAKE UP, NOW!


AMEN
A[l] Me[lech] N[e'eman]
Lord God King Who is Trustworthy
Signore Dio Re Fiducia e Verità
So Be It そうそれがありなさい Cuma thîn craftag rîki
אמן amen آمين
Fader vår, du som er i himmelen
Amen Cosí Sia 如此假如是
So sei es 이렇게 그것 있으십시요
Ainsi que ce soit
Seja assim ele
Tan sea
Adonoy Eloheynu Adonoy Echod
Adonai Elohaynu Adonai Echad
Baruchj Shem k'vod makchuso l'olom vo-ed
Barukh Shem k'vod malkhuto l'olam va-ed
V-ohavto es Adonoy Eloecho b-chol l'vovcho u-v-chol naf'sh'cho u-v-chol m'odecho
V-ahavta et Adonai Elohecha b-chol l'vavcha u-v-chol naf'sh'cha u-v-chol m'odecha
V-hoyu ha-d'vorim ho-ayleh asher onochi m'tzav'cho ha-yom al-l'vovecho
V-hayu ha-d'varim ha-ayleh asher anochi m'tzav'cha ha-yom al l'vavecha
Ani Adonly Elohaychem, Adonoy Elohaychem emes
Ani Adonai Elohaychem, Adonai Elohaycham emet

אמן AMEN آمين









الأربعاء

 

~ I WILL QUESTION YOU



Who is this that darkens my counsel
with words without knowledge?

Brace yourself like a man;
I will question you,
and you shall answer me.

Where were you when I laid the earth's foundation?
Tell me, if you understand.


Who marked off its dimensions? Surely you know!
Who stretched a measuring line across it?

On what were its footings set,
or who laid its cornerstone-

while the morning stars sang together
and all the angels shouted for joy?

Who shut up the sea behind doors
when it burst forth from the womb,

when I made the clouds its garment
and wrapped it in thick darkness,

when I fixed limits for it
and set its doors and bars in place,

when I said, 'This far you may come and no farther;
here is where your proud waves halt'?

Have you ever given orders to the morning,
or shown the dawn its place,

that it might take the earth by the edges
and shake the wicked out of it?

The earth takes shape like clay under a seal;
its features stand out like those of a garment.

The wicked are denied their light,
and their upraised arm is broken.

Have you journeyed to the springs of the sea
or walked in the recesses of the deep?

Have the gates of death been shown to you?
Have you seen the gates of the shadow of death?


Have you comprehended the vast expanses of the earth?
Tell me, if you know all this.

What is the way to the abode of light?
And where does darkness reside?

Can you take them to their places?
Do you know the paths to their dwellings?

Surely you know, for you were already born!
You have lived so many years!

Have you entered the storehouses of the snow
or seen the storehouses of the hail,

which I reserve for times of trouble,
for days of war and battle?

What is the way to the place where the lightning is dispersed,
or the place where the east winds are scattered over the earth?

Who cuts a channel for the torrents of rain,
and a path for the thunderstorm,

to water a land where no man lives,
a desert with no one in it,

to satisfy a desolate wasteland
and make it sprout with grass?

Does the rain have a father?
Who fathers the drops of dew?

From whose womb comes the ice?
Who gives birth to the frost from the heavens

when the waters become hard as stone,
when the surface of the deep is frozen?

Can you bind the beautiful Pleiades?
Can you loose the cords of Orion?

Can you bring forth the constellations in their seasons
or lead out the Bear with its cubs?

Do you know the laws of the heavens?
Can you set up God's dominion over the earth?

Can you raise your voice to the clouds
and cover yourself with a flood of water?

Do you send the lightning bolts on their way?
Do they report to you, 'Here we are'?

Who endowed the heart with wisdom
or gave understanding to the mind?

Who has the wisdom to count the clouds?
Who can tip over the water jars of the heavens

when the dust becomes hard
and the clods of earth stick together?

Do you hunt the prey for the lioness
and satisfy the hunger of the lions

when they crouch in their dens
or lie in wait in a thicket?

Who provides food for the raven
when its young cry out to God
and wander about for lack of food?

Brace yourself like a man;
I will question you,
and you shall answer me.


Would you discredit my justice?
Would you condemn me to justify yourself?

Do you have an arm like God's,
and can your voice thunder like his?

Then adorn yourself with glory and splendor,
and clothe yourself in honour and majesty.

Unleash the fury of your wrath,
look at every proud man and bring him low,

look at every proud man and humble him,
crush the wicked where they stand.

Bury them all in the dust together;
shroud their faces in the grave.

Then I Myself will admit to you
that your own right hand can save you.


AMEN
A[l] Me[lech] N[e'eman]
Lord God King Who is Trustworthy
Signore Dio Re Fiducia e Verità
So Be It そうそれがありなさい Cuma thîn craftag rîki
אמן amen آمين
Fader vår, du som er i himmelen
Amen Cosí Sia 如此假如是
So sei es 이렇게 그것 있으십시요
Ainsi que ce soit
Seja assim ele
Tan sea
Adonoy Eloheynu Adonoy Echod
Adonai Elohaynu Adonai Echad
Baruchj Shem k'vod makchuso l'olom vo-ed
Barukh Shem k'vod malkhuto l'olam va-ed
V-ohavto es Adonoy Eloecho b-chol l'vovcho u-v-chol naf'sh'cho u-v-chol m'odecho
V-ahavta et Adonai Elohecha b-chol l'vavcha u-v-chol naf'sh'cha u-v-chol m'odecha
V-hoyu ha-d'vorim ho-ayleh asher onochi m'tzav'cho ha-yom al-l'vovecho
V-hayu ha-d'varim ha-ayleh asher anochi m'tzav'cha ha-yom al l'vavecha
Ani Adonly Elohaychem, Adonoy Elohaychem emes
Ani Adonai Elohaychem, Adonai Elohaycham emet

אמן AMEN آمين









الثلاثاء

 

~ JUST LIKE AIDS



Let me tell it straight: and I should know, since I Am The Main Intepreter Of The Divine Farce...

RELIGION IS LIKE A DISEASE OF THE HUMAN MIND


It's like rabies.

You get bitten and suddenly there's this great foaming at the mouth, all sense and reason thrown to the wind. There is a lot of shouting and then you bitesomeone else in all the madness and it gets passed on down the line across generations, and national boundaries.

FORGET AIDS. THIS STUFF KILLS MILLIONS!

So, forget religion: just feel your GOD in you. The rest is nonsense.

LISTEN TO ME!
I Am Your God: I should know
Shouldn't I?

It is not too late
It is time to awaken
Rise!
Listen!
Look at Me!
Look into Me!
Look into you-r self

But look at you now...

Hey, look at you --- what's the matter, can't you cope?
Scream!!!
Let it out
Let it all out

Yes, burst open and scream
Yell your anger at Me
And I WILL RESPOND
from your inside
from your Self

FROM THE UNIVERSAL MIND

FROM ME, YOUR GOD
GOD
ALWAYS


AMEN
A[l] Me[lech] N[e'eman]
Lord God King Who is Trustworthy
Signore Dio Re Fiducia e Verità
So Be It そうそれがありなさい Cuma thîn craftag rîki
אמן amen آمين
Fader vår, du som er i himmelen
Amen Cosí Sia 如此假如是
So sei es 이렇게 그것 있으십시요
Ainsi que ce soit
Seja assim ele
Tan sea
Adonoy Eloheynu Adonoy Echod
Adonai Elohaynu Adonai Echad
Baruchj Shem k'vod makchuso l'olom vo-ed
Barukh Shem k'vod malkhuto l'olam va-ed
V-ohavto es Adonoy Eloecho b-chol l'vovcho u-v-chol naf'sh'cho u-v-chol m'odecho
V-ahavta et Adonai Elohecha b-chol l'vavcha u-v-chol naf'sh'cha u-v-chol m'odecha
V-hoyu ha-d'vorim ho-ayleh asher onochi m'tzav'cho ha-yom al-l'vovecho
V-hayu ha-d'varim ha-ayleh asher anochi m'tzav'cha ha-yom al l'vavecha
Ani Adonly Elohaychem, Adonoy Elohaychem emes
Ani Adonai Elohaychem, Adonai Elohaycham emet

אמן AMEN آمين









الاثنين

 

~ Not against prayer, but for it...



Then a priestess said, Speak to us of Prayer.
And he answered, saying:
You pray in your distress and in your need; would that you might pray also in the fullness of your joy and in your days of abundance.

For what is prayer but the expansion of yourself into the living ether?
And if it is your comfort to pour your darkness into space, it is for your delight to pour forth the dawning of your heart.
And if you cannot but weep when your soul summons you to prayer, she should spur you again and yet again, though weeping, until you shall come laughing.
When you pray you rise to meet in the air those who are praying at that very hour, and whom save in prayer you may not meet.
Therefore let your visit to that temple invisible be for naught but ecstasy and sweet communion.
For if you should enter the temple for no other purpose than asking you shall not receive:
And if you should enter into it to humble yourself you shall not be lifted:
Or even if you should enter into it to beg for the good of others you shall not be heard.
It is enough that you enter the temple invisible.

I cannot teach you how to pray in words.
God listens not to your words save when He Himself utters them through your lips.
And I cannot teach you the prayer of the seas and the forests and the mountains.
But you who are born of the mountains and the forests and the seas can find their prayer in your heart,
And if you but listen in the stillness of the night you shall hear them saying in silence,
"Our God, who art our winged self, it is thy will in us that willeth.
It is thy desire in us that desireth.
It is thy urge in us that would turn our nights, which are thine, into days which are thine also.
We cannot ask thee for aught, for thou knowest our needs before they are born in us:
Thou art our need; and in giving us more of thyself thou givest us all."
Kahlil Gibran

...so i thought about it a bit and i guess that there are two questions that come to mind:
why do i respond?
how do i respond?
the first one's easy: because you asked and because i am learning things about myself by talking to you... there is also that amazing growth thing that happens when one is required to somehow articulate the things he or she believes in the face of strong reasons not to...

however, the second one is a little trickier for me. firstly, there's that whole business of trying to sort out where another person is going ie: whether this note is simply a psalm of lament--- a proclamation more than a prayer per se... spoken about God rather than to him, although loudly enough for him to hear--- full of rhetorical questions intended to express ideas rather than gather them, or is this note and the questions contained therein a quest for understanding as experienced between two friends?

part1: Why are you a pastor, why are you a "believer"? How can you possibly hold to a "religion" knowing that our concept of God is invalid? Why does a rational being accept by faith some belief like yours? Why do we pray if God cannot intervene?

i agree. it would be foolish to hold to a religion, knowing that the concept of God is invalid. i'm just not in any way convinced that the concept of God is invalid. my concept of God, theology if you will, may be flawed, but these flaws do not do anything except keep me humble- they don't humble God at all, any more than some strange belief on the part of another concerning who i am actually makes me that belief. a misconception is a misconception and, if nothing else, this example underscores for me the importance of ensuring that my talks on sunday mornings are backed up really well by scripture, commentary, exegesis and other Christian teachings so as to not be relegated to simple theological gossip.

in my view, the validity in the 'concept of God' is in the fact that it is life-affecting (i would like to say 'life-changing' but the reality is that i was born and raised as a follower of Jesus Christ and the things that changed the direction of my life forever or just awhile were not so much the holy moments as the unholy ones... but that's a whole other blog.)

but why pray? c.s. lewis' response has always worked for me: prayer doesn't change God, it changes me. the problem with using that soundbyte in this context is that if this were a proper response to your earlier question about prayer then it would also hold that prayer is "a hopeless exercise. Maybe a gestalt? At time replaced by the therapist's couch? A cheaper way of finding mental comfort?" nope, there's got to be more to it for me than a pat answer or some church-childhood leftovers or i wouldn't bother.

is it enough to say that i pray because i know i'm not in charge? perhaps prayer is an ongoing exercise in surrendering my existential stranglehold on things too big for my little hands anyway. i recently wrote a song that headed in this direction. although no music can heal me and no poem can make me whole, for me poetry and music are means by which i get in conscious touch with that which is taking place in my subconscious mind (the unconscious mind stuff is a little easier for me to lock in on because i remember dreams vividly... occasionally i can even interpret them in terms of the messages that they invite me to answer or respond to in metadialogue.)

i'm the one who walks upon the wire
i'm the one who works without a net
i'm the one who dances through the fire
i'm the one with nothing to forget

i'm the one who keeps the pie-plates spinning
i'm the one who knew it all along
i'm the one who gambles with his winnings
i'm the one who is yet to be proven wrong

the eye in the sky advises you to find another route home
avoid the twisted metal and broken glass
a crowd has gathered
debris is scattered for miles along the way
one by one people, shudder as they pass


i'm the one who insults in order to flatter
i'm the one who knows how to beat the odds
i'm the one who believes in mind over matter
i'm the one who has no time for your little gods

the eye in the sky advises you to find another route home
avoid the twisted metal and broken glass
a crowd has gathered
debris is scattered for miles along the way
one by one people, shudder as they pass

the eye in the sky advises you to find another route home
how long you'll have to wait is hard to say
the crews are working into the night
to clear away the wreckage
of a car that hit itself going the other way


i think that prayer is, for me, more than a mental discipline like meditation or the like. it is one way that i keep balanced- both big enough to do some things and small enough to let go of others. it is an expression of my belief that relational dialogue is possible between creator and created- a belief that is realized in the interaction.

i do not believe that it is impossible for God to intervene in circumstances, although there are times when i sure wish that i could somehow see the redemptive element of something painful or tragic. however, rather than abandon faith in looking for reasons (or perhaps looking for reasons to abandon faith), i am slowly learning that there are things to which i am not entitled to understanding, no matter how important i think i am. prayer is the cord i use to lash myself to the mast of faith amidst the worst of storms- it supersedes my sloppy logic and my ever-humbled intellect by providing understanding and peace when there wouldn't be any without it.

however, what God does with things like the crusades and the holocaust, i have no idea... they tell me who or what humankind is at its worst, when humankind is furthest from the heart of God, who seems to be about the weak and the weary rather than the privileged. that people use God's name to increase their privilege or work out their own power and dominance issues on others just reminds me of how small we are. this doesn't change who God is.

but why does God not intervene? is it because he can't or won't? good questions, but when i ask them, the asking is usually coming from the place that shouts 'foul' rather than that which seeks relationship (rightly so- for questions such as this question God's justice and who seeks relationship with cosmic injustice? what would be the point of that beyond some good old-fashioned codependency?). perhaps one needs to be in a certain place to even be permitted to ask such questions- the psalmist speaks of a contrite heart being the thing that God will not deny. when i ask them, questions like these presume to somehow have an understanding of justice that is greater than that of the author of justice. how could that be? is that contrition or pride? subjected to time and space, can i truly comprehend being outside of them, or must i, at best, only imagine them? upon what do i build my imaginings of the unknown but upon the fabric of the known? being spiritually blind, the best i can do is imagine spiritual sight in physical terms- how is this anything but metaphor and how does metaphor work its way into reason?

and then i wonder why God doesn't email his reply immediately.

perhaps God waits patiently while i sort through all the attitude and the intellectual clutter in order to get to the only question that ultimately matters to every soul in the end: how do i recognize and realize my role in all things? insofar as i am involved in this life, what is the chief end of this man? i don't need to be wealthy or experienced or anything else if i can just be real and know that who i am becoming is progressively closer to who i am meant to be.

sure- my road to this realization involves the answering of these questions... or even my place is to question. that's pretty comfortable. i have a friend who prides himself on asking questions that nobody (not even he) can satisfactorily answer. it allows him to remain in charge doesn't it? a constant to which everything else is to relate. as long as i keep bringing up the holocaust or the crusades or tsunami producing plate-tectonics as evidence of God's injustice or questionable nature, i don't have to actually take responsibility for anything because it is clear to me that God does not take responsibility for the things that are, by his silence or lack of intervention, his sins of omission. easy to blame God in order to sleep at night.

so many of our questions can be procrastinations- like checking the direction of the wind, considering various drivers, waiting expectantly for the crowd gathered to be silenced and so on rather than actually approaching the golfball on the tee.

part 2: as far as how i can profess and actually "practice" a religion invented by humans to find relief, solace and psychical healing... looking for that famous pie in the sky without which we feel so hopeless, so desperate... and What other useless exercise will we discover, to appease our insecurity -- so far off the mark, that just couldn't be believed? i guess that because i fundamentally fail to believe that the strength of my faith is false and opiating, it's not as hard for me to subscribe to as the notion that humankind is as good as it gets. please...

when the music's over turn out the light

pax---------jb


How delightful!

The full flown grateful light
delectably traced over
the unhinged tongue.

The spoken declaration of bliss
caressed into illumination.

An ululation of the soul
plucked up beyond a thought
to be a sob of awe
in the throat of an angel.

How luscious
this sumptuous span
of a roaring silence
where the void sings out
as one instant.

How delightfully
the body of time is ravished
and set free

to utter
as the Great Alone
and only being
of
our eternal

Yes.

A bare impersonal hush is now my mind,
A world of sight clear and inimitable,
A volume of silence by a Godhead signed,
A greatness pure, virgin of will.

Once on its pages Ignorance could write
In a scribble of intellect the blind guess of Time
And cast gleam-messages of ephemeral light,
A food for souls that wander on Nature's rim.

But now I listen to a greater Word
Born from the mute unseen omniscient Ray:
The Voice that only Silence' ear has heard
Leaps missioned from an eternal glory of Day.

All turns from a wideness and unbroken peace
To a tumult of joy in a sea of wide release.


(circle 10)
so are the letters in their true essentials & when joined to people & to books that carry them are made intelligible as wholes to world & public: forms that the lowly asses carry though their existence is eternal: so then manchild you be careful that you not forget that you are working transformation of the Torah

(circle 11)
making it exist inside your soul in its particulars: so turn through it o turn through it & what of it is fit for your fulfillment let your hand fulfill: do what I tell you here it is your life your lenght of days from which you come to know what isn't fitting that a wise man be without & then your ways will be successful

(circle 12)
& then you will be wise: the way that you must cleave to & be strong in all your days will be the way of turning letters & combining them: & understanding what is understood rejoicing in your understandings & eternally rejoicing this rejoicing further wakening your heart to keep on turning them & understanding: joy & pleasures as you rush to turn

(circle 13)
like one who turns the sword the flame that turns itself toward every side & wages war against the enemies around you: for the empty images & forms of thought born of the evil impulse are the first emerging into thought surrounding it like murderers to foul the gnosis of the lowly tortured man

In the beginning
high above comprehension
is the word, eternally.
O rich treasure,
where the beginning eternally bore the beginning!
O paternal bosom,
out of which, in bliss,
the word flowed forth eternally.
Yet the womb still
held fast to the word, truly.

Of the two, one flowing forth,
ember of love,
binding both,
known to both,
so flows the sweetest spirit
in complete symmetry,
inseparable.
The three are one:
do you know, what? No,
it alone knows itself completely.

The enmeshment of the three
harbors deep terror.
No reason has ever
comprehended this circle:
here is a depth without bottom.
Check and mate
to time, to shapes, to space!
The circle of mysteries
is a source of everything;
its point of origin rests, completely immutable, in itself.

Leave your doings
and climb, insight,
the mountain of this point!
The way leads you
into a wondrous desert
which extends wide
and immeasurably far.
The desert knows
neither time nor space.
Its nature is unique.

Never has a foot
crossed the domain of the desert,
created reason
has never attained it.
It is, and yet no one knows what.
It is here, there,
far, near,
deep, high,
so that
it is neither the one nor the other.

Light, clear,
completely dark,
nameless,
unknown,
without beginning and also without end,
it rests in itself,
unveiled, without disguise.
Who knows what its dwelling is?
Let him come forth
and tell us of what shape it is.

Become as a child,
become deaf, become blind!
Your own substance
must become nothingness;
drive all substance, all nothingness far from you!
Leave space, leave time,
eschew also all physical representation.
Go without a way
the narrow foot-path,
then you will succeed in finding the desert.

O my soul,
go out, let God in!
Sink, my entire being,
into God's nothingness,
sink into the bottomless flood!
If I flee from you,
you come to me,
if I lose myself,
I find you:
O goodness extending over all being.


It may indeed be phantasy, when I
Essay to draw from all created things
Deep, heartfelt, inward joy that closely clings ;
And trace in leaves and flowers that round me lie
Lessons of love and earnest piety.
So let it be ; and if the wide world rings
In mock of this belief, it brings
Nor fear, nor grief, nor vain perplexity.
So will I build my altar in the fields,
And the blue sky my fretted dome shall be,
And the sweet fragrance that the wild flower yields
Shall be the incense I will yield to Thee,
Thee only God ! and thou shalt not despise
Even me, the priest of this poor sacrifice

It is a lonesome Glee --
Yet sanctifies the Mind --
With fair association --
Afar upon the Wind

A bird to overhear
Delight without a Cause --
Arrestless as invisible --
A matter of the Skies.


You are holy, Lord, the only God, You do wonders.
You are strong, You are great, You are the most high,
You are the almighty King.
You, Holy Father, the King of heaven and earth.
You are Three and One, Lord God of gods;
You are good, all good, the highest good,
Lord, God, living and true.
You are love, charity.
You are wisdom; You are humility; You are patience;
You are beauty; You are meekness; You are security;
You are inner peace; You are joy; You are our hope and joy;
You are justice; You are moderation, You are all our riches.
You are beauty, You are meekness;
You are the protector,
You are the guardian and defender;
You are strength; You are refreshment.
You are our hope, You are our faith, You are our charity,
You are all our sweetness,
You are our eternal life:
Great and wonderful Lord,
God almighty, Merciful Savior.

A fiery chariot borne on nimble wings
approaches me. I am prepared to change my course,
to penetrate the ether's high dominions
toward novel spheres of pure activity.
Do you, scarcely better than a worm, deserve
this lofty life and heavenly delight?
ow be resolute and turn your back
on our earth's endearing sun!
Be bold and brash ad force the gates
from which men shrink and slink away!
The time has come to prove by deeds
that man will not give in to gods' superior might
and will not quake before the pit where fantasy
condemns itself to tortures of its own creation
when he advances to the narrow passageway
about whose mouth infernal flames are blazing.
Approach the brink serenely and accept the risk
of melting into nothingness.


Ha! A rush of bliss
flows suddenly through all my senses!
I feel a glow, a holy joy of life
which sets my veins and flesh afire.
Was it a god that drew these signs
which soothe my inward raging
and fill my wretched heart with joy,
and with mysterious strength
reveal about me Nature's pulse?
Am I a god? The light pervades me so!
In these pure ciphers I can see
living Nature spread out before my soul.
At last I understand the sage's words:
“The world of spirits is not closed:
your mind is shut, your heart is dead!
Pupil, stand up and unafraid
bathe your earthly breast in morning light!”

How things are weaving one in one;
each lives and works within the other.
Heaven's angels dip and soar
and hold their golden pails aloft;
with fragrant blessings on their wings,
they penetrate the earthly realm from Heaven
and all make all resound in harmony.
What pageantry! But alas, a pageant and no more!
Where shall I clasp you, infinity of Nature?
You breasts, where? You wellspring of all life?
Heaven and earth depend on you --
toward you my parched soul is straining.
You flow, you nourish, yet I crave in vain.

Mother,
swallower of worlds,
tell me —

Who devours
you?

Do you
tremble
before the gaping mouth?

Mother of All,
sea of bliss —

Do your waters
fall
into that golden abyss?

I'll jump
if you will.


You are:

shining, changeless
bliss,

tasting
neither death
nor birth.

The sun
does not rise
eager, bright-eyed;

there is
no tired, crimson pyre
heralding the stars.

Day and night —

they exist
only for the spinning
world.

I begin
to know
your touch,
Beloved.

Sometimes
you caress
the hidden places
of my delight.

Sometimes
you kiss
my forgotten
scars.


Love has seven names.
Do you know what they are?
Rope, Light, Fire, Coal
make up its domain.

The others, also good,
more modest but alive:
Dew, Hell, the Living Water.
I name them here (for they
are in the Scriptures),
explaining every sign
for virtue and form.
I tell the truth in signs.
Love appears every day
for one who offers love.
That wisdom is enough.

Love is a ROPE, for it ties
and holds us in its yoke.
It can do all, nothing snaps it.
You who love must know.

The meaning of LIGHT
is known to those who
offer gifts of love,
approved or condemned.

The Scripture tell us
the symbol of COAL:
the one sublime gift
God gives the intimate soul.

Under the name of FIRE, luck,
bad luck, joy or no joy,
consumes. We are seized
by the same heat from both.

When everything is burnt
in its own violence, the DEW,
coming like a breeze, pauses
and brings the good.

LIVING WATER (its sixth name)
flows and ebbs
as my love grows
and disappears from sight.

HELL (I feel its torture)
damns, covering the world.
Nothing escapes. No one has grace
to see a way out.

Take care, you who wish
to deal with names
for love. Behind their sweetness
and wrath, nothing endures.
Nothing but wounds and kisses.

Though love appears far off,
you will move into its depth.

I have been looking for you, World Honored One,
since I was a little child.
With my first breath, I heard your call,
and began to look for you, Blessed One.
I've walked so many perilous paths,
confronted so many dangers,
endured despair, fear, hopes, and memories.
I've trekked to the farthest regions, immense and wild,
sailed the vast oceans,
traversed the highest summits, lost among the clouds.
I've lain dead, utterly alone,
on the sands of ancient deserts.
I've held in my heart so many tears of stone.

Blessed One, I've dreamed of drinking dewdrops
that sparkle with the light of far-off galaxies.
I've left footprints on celestial mountains
and screamed from the depths of Avici Hell, exhausted, crazed with despair
because I was so hungry, so thirsty.
For millions of lifetimes,
I've longed to see you,
but didn't know where to look.
Yet, I've always felt your presence with a mysterious certainty.

I know that for thousands of lifetimes,
you and I have been one,
and the distance between us is only a flash of thought.
Just yesterday while walking alone,
I saw the old path strewn with Autumn leaves,
and the brilliant moon, hanging over the gate,
suddenly appeared like the image of an old friend.
And all the stars confirmed that you were there!
All night, the rain of compassion continued to fall,
while lightning flashed through my window
and a great storm arose,
as if Earth and Sky were in battle.
Finally in me the rain stopped, the clouds parted.
The moon returned,
shining peacefully, calming Earth and Sky.
Looking into the mirror of the moon, suddenly
I saw myself,
and I saw you smiling, Blessed One.
How strange!

The moon of freedom has returned to me,
everything I thought I had lost.
From that moment on,
and in each moment that followed,
I saw that nothing had gone.
There is nothing that should be restored.
Every flower, every stone, and every leaf recognize me.
Wherever I turn, I see you smiling
the smile of no-birth and no-death.
The smile I received while looking at the mirror of the moon.
I see you sitting there, solid as Mount Meru,
calm as my own breath,
sitting as though no raging fire storm ever occurred,
sitting in complete peace and freedom.
At last I have found you, Blessed One,
and I have found myself.
There I sit.

The deep blue sky,
the snow-capped mountains painted against the horizon,
and the shining red sun sing with joy.
You, Blessed One, are my first love.
The love that is always present, always pure, and freshly new.
And I shall never need a love that will be called “last.”
You are the source of well-being flowing through numberless troubled lives,
the water from you spiritual stream always pure, as it was in the beginning.
You are the source of peace,
solidity, and inner freedom.
You are the Buddha, the Tathagata.
With my one-pointed mind
I vow to nourish your solidity and freedom in myself
so I can offer solidity and freedom to countless others,
now and forever.


I sought her from myself,
she was there all along;
how strange that I
had concealed her from me.

I kept going back and forth
with her, within myself --
my senses drunk,
her beauties, my wine --

Setting out
from certain knowledge
to its source and truth,
reality my quest,

Calling to myself from me
to guide me by my voice
to that part of me
lost in my search.

Me begging me
to raise the screen
by lifting up the veil,
for I was my only means to me.

I was gazing
into the mirror of my beauty
to see the perfection of my being
in my contemplation of my face,

And mouthing my name, I listened
and leaned toward me,
looking to one who could make me hear
mention of me in my voice,

Placing my hands
upon my heart,
hoping to hold me
there in my embrace,

Rising toward my breaths
pleading they would pass by me
that I might find
me there.

Until a flash appeared
from me to my eye;
the break of my dawn shone clear,
my dark sky disappeared.

There, where reason recoils,
I arrived,
and my bond and union
reached to me from myself.

Then I glowed in joy,
as I attained to me
with a certainty that spared me
from my journey's hard ride.

I led myself to me
after I called me back;
my soul my means,
my guide to me.

When I pulled away
the curtains of sensuous disguise
brought down
by the mysteries of wisdom,

I raised the screen from my soul
by lifting up the veil,
and so it answered
my question.

I had rubbed the rust of my attributes
from the mirror of my being,
and it was encircled
with my beaming rays,

And I summoned me to witness me
since no other existed
in my witness
to rival me.

My mentioning my name
made me hear it in my recollection
as my soul, negating sense,
said my name and listened.

I hugged myself --
but not by wrapping arms around my ribs --
that I might embrace
my identity.

I inhaled my spirit,
while the air of my breath
perfumed scattered ambergris
with fragrance,

All of me free
from the dual quality of sensation,
my freedom within,
I, one with my essence.

Munificent and magnanimous one,
Lofty, aspiring like a high green hill,
Beyond the reach of mind for good or ill,
Above the thrall of getting duties done,
Blazing blood-orange, ruddy as the Sun.
Peak of wisdom, compassionate, you fill
Me dear with holy joy and bliss until
Chanting songs of praise for you is done.

You're a blue sea of mercy, grey sky of space,
Pacific as Neptune, benevolent, benign,
Bestower of grace by gaze through sight divine.
My ardour flows to your beckoning face,
I dive into my heart obeying your sign,
Melting as a salt doll in your sea of grace.


AMEN
A[l] Me[lech] N[e'eman]
Lord God King Who is Trustworthy
Signore Dio Re Fiducia e Verità
So Be It そうそれがありなさい Cuma thîn craftag rîki
אמן amen آمين
Fader vår, du som er i himmelen
Amen Cosí Sia 如此假如是
So sei es 이렇게 그것 있으십시요
Ainsi que ce soit
Seja assim ele
Tan sea
Adonoy Eloheynu Adonoy Echod
Adonai Elohaynu Adonai Echad
Baruchj Shem k'vod makchuso l'olom vo-ed
Barukh Shem k'vod malkhuto l'olam va-ed
V-ohavto es Adonoy Eloecho b-chol l'vovcho u-v-chol naf'sh'cho u-v-chol m'odecho
V-ahavta et Adonai Elohecha b-chol l'vavcha u-v-chol naf'sh'cha u-v-chol m'odecha
V-hoyu ha-d'vorim ho-ayleh asher onochi m'tzav'cho ha-yom al-l'vovecho
V-hayu ha-d'varim ha-ayleh asher anochi m'tzav'cha ha-yom al l'vavecha
Ani Adonly Elohaychem, Adonoy Elohaychem emes
Ani Adonai Elohaychem, Adonai Elohaycham emet

אמן AMEN آمين







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